Fact: School has begun and I am melancholy

Today was the first offical day of school and my day went something like this:

At 5, I somehow rolled out of bed, into my clothes, and through my usual routine. A little while later and I was out the door to pick up my friend and head to school. Then we just hung around until the bell rang for homeroom. School starts ridiculously early this year, and I really do not enjoy it. I like sleeping in too much.

I had that fluttering feeling in the pit of my stomach all day. You know, that extremely nervous and the 'oh, I forgot I'm supposed to breathe' type of feeling. My Honors English teacher seems very very nice, but extremely intimidating. My AP History teacher seems funny, but also very scary. And my Advanced Spanish teacher seems very fun, but I still can't help but being nervous.

But it seems like I will have a lot of fun in English class. And Spanish should be fine once I get the hang of it. But AP History is the only thing I worry about. The couse load seems so heavy! And that makes me extremely anxious. The thing that makes it worse is the fact that I don't really like anyone in that class. Well, there's a handful of people that I think are really awesome. But the other's are just meh. Maybe it's because I went into the class expecting to be surrounded by my friends. But honestly. Most of the people, I just dislike enough to wish them to some obscure place like Idaho so I wouldn't have to deal with them. And then there's you there too. To be honest, I was excited to come back to school and see you, but now, you're just really annoying. I kind of want to deck you in the face everytime I see you since it's just something there about you that I don't like anymore. But it shouldn't be a huge thing for you, you have enough friends to not notice that I'm not there anymore.

I am disappointed by the class I'm assigned to tutor. I was really excited to get cute naive little freshmen, but I didn't luck out too well. I'm stuck with my classmates. But today, since I wasn't needed, the teacher gave me a free study in the library where I got most of my homework done. I started a 'Where I'm from essay, and seriously didn't realize how hard it actually is.

Hopefully, I won't feel so nervous tomorrow. But for once, I actually have a bunch of people I know in my classes, so I don't have to worry so much.

The freshman are very annoying. They stand in the middle of the hallways and just take up space. They're also annoying when they crowd around you during lunch. They tend to take up a whole chunk of the table, and if you're in their way, they surround you, and talk across from you, which is totally annoying. The freshmen last year, who are now sophmores are just as bad as they were as freshmen. I wish my school had some freshman orientation thing to show them a lesson kekekekekekekekekekkekekekekeke.

But returning to school makes me kind of sad. I'm sad that summer is over, and I must get back to the swing of things. And now that I'm with everyone, I still feel kind of lonely.

In other news, my bear hat came in, and I'm super excited! It's super cute, and I can't wait til I have time to model it for you guys (since I have a super big wedding for my Aunt this weekend).

So this year, I made a random goals for myself:

1. Learn an awesome dance r0utine
2. Become a pretty ulzzang (well, try lol)
3. Paint/draw something amazing
4. Write more
5. Move up a rank, or keep my rank
6. Do decently well on my SATs

(more to come later XD)