This is a fun little 'pet-project' of a schoolgirl where she goes on to vent her feelings, thoughts and views, write, and babble on about nonesense that goes about her usual life.
If you've found this blog, then chances are great that you know me. I'm just a regular asian schoolgirl, and there's nothing out of the ordinary with me. But alongside that, I am a violinist, an artist, a model, a travel enthusiast, and a web designer. I love many things such as: my culture, foreign languages, books, stuffed animals, the rain, and animals. In the same breath, I dislike a few things. These few would consist of: homework, cold weather, milk, heights and crowded beaches. I also have my share of hopes and dreams alongside everyone else.
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Friday, September 25, 20095:32 PM
Fact: My mom laughs very loudly and also loves saltine crackers
I think I'm going through one of those emo stages again with school.
I suddenly find myself hating art because of my teacher. No, I don't hate my teacher. I actually really like her to be honest, but I should have listened to my older friends. They told me not to take Advanced Drawing because this is the year that our teacher suddenly turned into an 'art nazi' and was very critical about work and etc. But I really shouldn't have been stupid and truly listened to his words. She is so critical with my work this year and gives my poor grades, (in my high standards anyway) because she knows I am capable of more. I know she's only doing what she knows is right, but I honeslty don't really feel up to working. It's just made me so upset that I've honestly considered dropping the course altogether.
I'm sure I'll get over it in a matter of a few days.
There is a wedding taking place today and my parents were set to attend; but my mom decided to bail on my dad, and now he is attending alone. She decided to bail because she would much rather work. In actuality, our whole family was invited, but I have honestly had enough weddings for the next few months. There have been too many taking place lately.
I still have no plans for this weekend at all. There is a party tomorrow, but I honestly don't feel up to it. I just feel like sitting at home and having a day to myself. But I honestly know that that is not going to happen at all because I'll be at work. I don't find it fair at all that I'm always the one that's at work, unlike my siblings. Clearly, when I was their age, and even much younger, I was stuck all the time.
I also realized that the music on here stops out of nowhere at one point. Well, I've known this forever, I've just never gotten around to fixing it. lol. I guess I'll have more to write as the weekend goes on.
Oh, I published this, and I forgot that I was supposed to write about my mother because she is in the fact of the day. XD
I have to say she is quite a cute person. She's a tiny little asian lady who is much shorter than I. (typical right?) Everyone says we look like sisters, becuase she looks so young, but I don't really understand where they see it. I have her ebony hair, her eyes, her figure, her lips, her jaw, her hands and her feet but that's not so much right? Lol.
She likes many things such as: her imported dramas, shopping, formal dresses, talking, classical/traditional East Asian music, movies, lecturing me, and etc. She seems to laugh very very loudly, and she always mixes her Vietnamese in with English when she speaks to my friends. She loves to make jokes and poke fun at things. She has a tendency to make me carry her bags all the time like a pack mule, but I honestly do not mind so much because I love her. Honestly, there is much much more to say about her, so I guess I'll get around to everything eventually.
Don't tell anyone, but I favor her over my dad.... lol.
Today she cornered me today because she found out about my bad grade in algebra. Honestly, she took it much better than I had thought. Ahh it's all the dumb online grade system my school has. She went on to comment how much of a slacker I have become over the summer, and then how I should never get a boyfriend because he'll distract me from schoolwork. Lol, the irony in this is that I do have a boyfriend, and he is quite 'adorkable' mind you lol, but he's not distracting me, it's the internet. I think they should take it away from me. XD
Today's major distraction was Facebook, and I didn't even do anything on it at all!
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Thursday, September 24, 200911:20 PM
Fact: I don't like studying for tests
I should be in bed; I promised myself that I would and I know I will regret it tomorrow morning since I've been waking up later and later and finding it harder and harder to get up. School was the same as it always is, and I was stuck with another one of those surprise english quizzes that I am now beginning to abhor since we literally have one every class.
Next week I have a huge AP history test, and I am totally unprepared, but I guess I'll be doing a lot of studying for a while. What makes it worse is that I have an english test the same day. But to be honest, I would much rather study for the english test because it is much much simpler. Lol, days like this make me wonder why I took the class.
I don't know how I feel about you anymore. We used to talk so very often during freshman year, but we don't as much anymore since we don't have many classes with one another. All I really seem to be able to get from you is sometimes a mere 'hey' in the hallways but that's it. What's even sadder is the fact that I am always initiating the greeting. But lately you've been irksome. No, not to me directly, but indirectly. It's difficult to explain. I have so many questions for you. I just wish I truly knew who you were.
I don't want to sound mean, but I almost kind of wish you weren't in my specific class. You ca be quite apathetic, and in turn it brings down my mood. The class is supposed to be very interesting and enjoyable, but to be honest you make it such a downer. It bothers me greatly that you were able to suck the joy out of this one slightly enjoyable thing. You're so reclusive and judgemental, that you put down everything.
You're such an internet zombie. You need to seriously turn off the computer and walk away for once. You're an addict and I am planning an intervention. Lol. I'm only joking. But I still feel you're on the internet way too much. Don't worry about it. You'll make it lol.
I wish there was something for me to look forward to this weekend, but there really isn't anything at all. The only thing I have to do is study study study and go to the Asian market with my mom. Maybe I'll go see a movie with a friend or two.
Oh! That remind me! Jaws 3 was on tv today. Lol. I've never seen it, and I noticed how extremely thin Samuel L Jackson used to be. He's packed on a lot of muscle since then. My mom also pointed out that in all the movies he's every played, he always plays a good guy. I find that interesting. But I totally veered off topic from Jaws, and now I don't remember what I was going to say.
I think I'm legitimately getting sick again since I can't stop sneezing, and my nose is constantly running. I also dislike how my room is extremely warm all the time. Lol, I mean it's great in the winter, but even then it can be too much XD
It's nearly midnight.
I should go to bed. :]
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Wednesday, September 23, 200910:24 PM
Fact: This week is horrible
Honestly, this whole week seems to be horrible. On Monday I received a B- on a homework assignment for Physics. The next day I would go on to do horrible on an Advanced Spanish test, and today I got a C+ on an Algebra 2 test that pulled me down six rankings. So all in all, a really crappy week. I just can't wait for it to be over, and the sooner the better. In recent days, I haven't been feeling well either; every morning I seem to wake up with a cold or a sore throat, and by the time I am heading to bed, my asthma acts up, and I'm sick again. Purell doesn't seem to keep the germs away nowadays.
Everyone's making a huge deal over swine flu, and I can't understand why. All H1N1 is is just the traditional flu, just a little bit worse. Everyone is making such a huge deal over it and making it seem like it's the next bubonic plague. And I think they're blowing it way out of proportion. It's going to be over in a matter of weeks once everyone just stops talking about it, like MRSA.
All in all, today I feel a bit melancholy. I felt melancholy this morning when I realized I had woken up extremely late and only had about 10 minutes to get out of the house. I was melancholy during religion class when I came to the realization that I'm not going to get into the college of my dreams. I was especially melancholy when I realized I had actually legitimately finished my lunch at lunch. (Something that never ever happens; what made it worse was that it was pasta) Work went without incident. And when I returned home, I was melancholy once more when I was watching America's Next Top Model, and realized that I was eating as I was watching it.
Meh, I guess I was horrible today with the food since I'm trying to eat healthy (minus the salads because salads are disgusting lol). I skipped breakfast because I just don't have the time for it. Lunch I had pasta. Then I went home and had a bunch of chocolate bars, and then calamari and rice for dinner. I should've done without the chocolate bars since I'm so cavity prone. XD I'm honestly extremely glad that I don't reside with my maternal grandmother, because at her house, she's shoveling 6-7 meals a day down our throats, and they aren't very small proportions either lol. To be honest, I don't like to eat very much, unless the food is very tasty and I'm ravagingly hungry, I just eat my square meals a day because I know I have too. Because if you don't eat, you wither and you die ! Lol
But onto other news, I'm sure you all noticed that I finally changed my blog layout! I kind of stole it from Lianna. But I have to say, I always really liked it, but she was always using it XD
I can't help but say this, but I find you extremely irritating. You talk to us all as if were bumbling babies that have just learned to crawl across the carpet, and are unable to comprehend the language in which you speak. You're not very helpful, and nor do you seem very understanding; you are more of a surveyor. I find you very judging; you're quick to judge every little motion and thing. You act as if you will only be satisfied if your friends with all of us, so you look down and speak to us in your monotone voice. But to be honest, you're probably twice my age and you are my superior; so let's not get so buddy-buddy.
I hope I don't bore you. I hope that I am completely uninteresting to you. I hope that I am not the complete opposite of what you created within the confines of your mind; that mental picture and sculpture of who you believed me to be. I hope I am fascinating and mentally-stirring enough for you. I hope I fit the ideals of the great person you keep telling me that I am.
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Thursday, September 3, 20093:43 PM
the long dog days
Fact: School has begun and I am melancholy
Today was the first offical day of school and my day went something like this:
At 5, I somehow rolled out of bed, into my clothes, and through my usual routine. A little while later and I was out the door to pick up my friend and head to school. Then we just hung around until the bell rang for homeroom. School starts ridiculously early this year, and I really do not enjoy it. I like sleeping in too much.
I had that fluttering feeling in the pit of my stomach all day. You know, that extremely nervous and the 'oh, I forgot I'm supposed to breathe' type of feeling. My Honors English teacher seems very very nice, but extremely intimidating. My AP History teacher seems funny, but also very scary. And my Advanced Spanish teacher seems very fun, but I still can't help but being nervous.
But it seems like I will have a lot of fun in English class. And Spanish should be fine once I get the hang of it. But AP History is the only thing I worry about. The couse load seems so heavy! And that makes me extremely anxious. The thing that makes it worse is the fact that I don't really like anyone in that class. Well, there's a handful of people that I think are really awesome. But the other's are just meh. Maybe it's because I went into the class expecting to be surrounded by my friends. But honestly. Most of the people, I just dislike enough to wish them to some obscure place like Idaho so I wouldn't have to deal with them. And then there's you there too. To be honest, I was excited to come back to school and see you, but now, you're just really annoying. I kind of want to deck you in the face everytime I see you since it's just something there about you that I don't like anymore. But it shouldn't be a huge thing for you, you have enough friends to not notice that I'm not there anymore.
I am disappointed by the class I'm assigned to tutor. I was really excited to get cute naive little freshmen, but I didn't luck out too well. I'm stuck with my classmates. But today, since I wasn't needed, the teacher gave me a free study in the library where I got most of my homework done. I started a 'Where I'm from essay, and seriously didn't realize how hard it actually is.
Hopefully, I won't feel so nervous tomorrow. But for once, I actually have a bunch of people I know in my classes, so I don't have to worry so much.
The freshman are very annoying. They stand in the middle of the hallways and just take up space. They're also annoying when they crowd around you during lunch. They tend to take up a whole chunk of the table, and if you're in their way, they surround you, and talk across from you, which is totally annoying. The freshmen last year, who are now sophmores are just as bad as they were as freshmen. I wish my school had some freshman orientation thing to show them a lesson kekekekekekekekekekkekekekekeke.
But returning to school makes me kind of sad. I'm sad that summer is over, and I must get back to the swing of things. And now that I'm with everyone, I still feel kind of lonely.
In other news, my bear hat came in, and I'm super excited! It's super cute, and I can't wait til I have time to model it for you guys (since I have a super big wedding for my Aunt this weekend).
So this year, I made a random goals for myself:
1. Learn an awesome dance r0utine
2. Become a pretty ulzzang (well, try lol)
3. Paint/draw something amazing
4. Write more
5. Move up a rank, or keep my rank
6. Do decently well on my SATs
(more to come later XD)