This is a fun little 'pet-project' of a schoolgirl where she goes on to vent her feelings, thoughts and views, write, and babble on about nonesense that goes about her usual life.
If you've found this blog, then chances are great that you know me. I'm just a regular asian schoolgirl, and there's nothing out of the ordinary with me. But alongside that, I am a violinist, an artist, a model, a travel enthusiast, and a web designer. I love many things such as: my culture, foreign languages, books, stuffed animals, the rain, and animals. In the same breath, I dislike a few things. These few would consist of: homework, cold weather, milk, heights and crowded beaches. I also have my share of hopes and dreams alongside everyone else.
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Wednesday, June 18, 200811:44 AM
Forget me nots ♥
Fact: I hope you forget me not
Have you ever gotten that gut wrenching feeling when you walk away from someone. You know, that one where you know there are very slim chances of ever seeing them again. And you worry. "Will you forget me?" It's aways that aching feeling, where what if you see them again, and they're forgotten everything that had happened between you two.
The thought, I find is scary. I mean, everyone wants to be remembered. And you can't help but think;
'I'm not memorable?'
Maybe I think too much into it, but the thought makes me worry. I mean, I want to be remembered, even by the slightest person. What are the reason for Forget Me Nots? Do they have some special meaning? Were they named that because of some gift? Or are they just called that simply because the scientist couldn't think of anything else.
What if there's some cute love stroy behind it? Well, no one will ever know.
I actually found the story!
Legend has it that in medieval times, a knight and his lady were walking along the side of a river. He picked a posy of flowers, but because of the weight of his armour he fell into the river. As he was drowning he threw the posy to his loved one and shouted "Forget-me-not". This is a flower connected with romance and tragic fate. It was often worn by ladies as a sign of faithfulness and enduring love
I don't know why I put this up. It was just a thought..
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Fact: You're just another advertisement
Did you ever notice that stars always advertise themselves as deeply religious and devout Catholics? And since they are sooo devout, why is it that they get themselves into so many scandals. 'Oh, were a very deeply religious, we pray every day, and we say grace before every meal. We don't approve of sex before marriage' Then why is your daughter pretty much selling herself? For instance take, Miley Cyrus. You know, everyone knows who she is, but it doesn't make me like her anymore. Actually I hate her.
Remember when she was just coming out and wasn't a skank yet? Well, in every article/interview she was in, they made such a huge emphasis that she was quite a devout Catholic. If she was such a devout Catholic as she lead us on to believe, then what's with all the skanky pictures of her with the typical 45 degree angle myspace shots.
We've all seen them at one point. Stomach shots, bikini shots, all with her lips out as if she's asking for it. Oh, I even forgot to mention the one with her pink thong, and the other with her shirt pulled down so you could see her bright lime green bra. And then there's that other one with her in a bra sprawled over the lap of some guy.
When I heard about promiscuous twelve year olds, I was sick to my stomach. When I saw her I was long gone. I died five times before I hit the ground. Overkill much? And then the Vanity Fair shoot. Don't even get me started on that. But wow, I thought Lindsay Lohan was bad, just check out this fifteen year old.
And then I remember when I was on Youtube one day, Miley fans were bustling trying to prove some stupid point. They had taken clips from Vanity Fair's site, to prove that Miley wasn't naked under that sheet. Oh come on. Okay, so she was wearing jeans, but still, she still looks like a _______ you can fill in the line for yourselves.
Don't forget that Vanessa Anne Hudgens scandal, with the nacked photos. Trust me, my sister was looking her up on Photobucket because she like to make avatars and blends of celebrities, and that picture came up on the search. I had to cover her eyes. But trust me, you're not missing anything. I asked some of my guy friends who saw it too, and they even said it was gross. Heh, at least do some pose or something. Don't just stand there. Lol, crappy home made porn.
And you know what's even worse? They're both Disney Channel stars. Little kids look up to skanks like this. Oh, real quick don't forget Mitchell Musso who's smokes out of his mind. I've seen teh proof.
Their lives are in the spotlight, the least they could do is hide their secrets a little bit better.
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Monday, June 16, 20086:21 PM
Blow me away ♥
Fact: You blow me away
I don't even know what I meant by my last post. I think I'm just losing my mind. Maybe it's the stress getting to me. Lately today I've been getting headaches. And I noticed my growing hate for some people that decide to come into the store at the wrong moments. I noticed I don't look at them sometimes, I stare straight forward and smile. Smile that stupid smile, just smile.
Hmm, I've been kinda bored lately and I really need something to do. We were supposed to go to the bookstore today, but it was supposed to hail, so we couldn't. I don't know what I'm going to do because I really don't want to go to work tomorrow at alllllll...
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Fact: I think you're all infatuated with the idea of love
I find it funny that all teenage girls drool over the same thing, a fairy-tale ending. I mean some days I walk around the halls and I find it shallow that they all just stand in their little clusters chattering their lives away about how Mike got a haircut, or the car Tom came to school in. All they care about is Hollister or American Eagle, and if you don't wear labels you're not good enough to talk to them. I mean I can admit, I wear those labels. But beauty is only skin deep. But who doesn't say that?
I met a woman once, actually it was a psychic. Not that you guys don't already know that I'm totally in to that stuff, but that's besides the point. I was seeing someone at that point in time, and she told me that I shoulld choose the friend, the guy that was one of my friends who wanted to ask me out, but didn't want to ruin our relationship, over the 'looker'.
I think about those two words a lot. They say beauty in youth is a mistake of nature, but beauty in old age is a masterpiece. So it makes me think, what will I be like as I get older. Because I'm not afraid of death, I'm afraid of growing old. In my few years I have met incredible beautiful people, but as I got to know them, they became stupid, arrogant and vain beasts. Now that I look back at it, they were just pretty faces. They really had no substance at all. Just walking hollow shells.
I was in love with one once, but it was my own stupidity. It wasn't love, it was infatuation. And that's what everyone's obsessing over. Infatuation means foolish or all-absorbing passion. All their dreams are so shallow. Like I said before, all they care about is some dream-like life. I don't want to be the one to pull them back to reality and wake them up, but someone's going to have to sometime.
I mean, just take a good look at them. They don't care. They care about their status, and their clothes. They care about who has the hottest boyfriend, and who has the cutest Coach bag. They drown themselves in sublimity. Sometimes I wish I could float through life on a cloud.
The only thing is, I'm living my life with my eyes open.
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Write out a daydream
Fact: I daydream
My latest obsession you ask? Alex Pettyfer. I have offically made it my mission to find him in England, have him fall madly in love with me, and marry him. And this must be done soon since we have not much time. ♥ I'm just kidding. He's amazing and all, but well, I guess you guys get it. Just thank the Lord I'm not one of those crazy obsessive fangirls. Okay, maybe he's my wallpaper on my phone, but it's not like I conciously stare at him whenever I open my phone. I don't notice anymore, I'm just so used to seeing Riku.
By the way... I'm not an obsessive Twilight fangirl either. I just love the series very much. And I would love if Jasper Hale actually existed.
Lately I've been gettin the notion to write again. But, I haven't figured out what to write yet. Maybe I'll work on that novel I wanted to write. I don't know if I still want to do that story. I might've just waited to long, that I myself got bored of it quickly. I dunno, it happened with the story before the latter. I don't know what I'll write about, but I keep picturing what the cover would look like in my mind. I'm just getting ahead of myself here. I just need to slow down and clear my mind.
Now I notice I'm getting a headache.
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Sunday, June 15, 200810:57 PM
Fact: I think about castles
Don't you ever wonder about what kings and queens do in those vast castles? I mean, what do they do in there? Do they have some rooms specifically designed for eating chocolate? Hmm, let us ponder.
Alright, I've had enough thinking for the next few moments.
I wonder what it would be like to live in a castle. Urg, it must be very draftly then since it's made of stone. And the no air conditioning thing over the hot summers. I guess it would be nice though, living in such a posh enviorment where you didn't need to lift a finger. I just randomly had the idea of marrying Prince William. Dude, I should do it! I mean, he is pretty good looking, and he's intelligent.
But then, I could never marry someone I didn't love.
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Like a bad movie ♥
Fact: I think we're like a bad movie
Have you noticed that recently all movies have some sort of love in it? I mean I remember when we watched A Light in the Forest and throughout that whole book there was no mention of a girl or any love at all. And then our teacher had us watch the movie by Disney to point out differences, and the only huge one was that they threw in this random girl so he would have a love intrest. Maybe that's just a signature of Disney.
But really, all songs are about love, in one way or another. And for God's sake, even Iron Man has a love intrest. Maybe that's just me and I notice it.
Sometimes it just disgusts me, or maybe is it because I'm bitter? Well, I'll never know, I can barely figure myself out. Heh, of all people he chose that. Of all the things, but heck, who am I to judge? I don't know her. Quick question, why did I pick him in the first place? Nothing alike, and I always seemed to hate him sometimes. I ask my friends why they didn't say anything, and they always seem to say the same thing, 'it was a good lesson/learning experience'. Sometimes when I see him I seem to want to wretch. Well, I don't literally see him, but you guys get the point.
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Friday, June 13, 20082:18 PM
Breeding Pshycos ♥
Fact: We're breeding psychos
So, today is just another one of those days stuck at the salon. But it seems that father is on one of his short temper fuses. I made a tiny correctable mistake on the gift rendering and he flipped at me. But I got Erin to show me the rest. God, four more hours til closing. What am I going to do?
There was this woman that came in, boy was she a bitch. But of course I was the one that had to deal with her of all things, and it was pretty much as if hell had opened it gated for that very moment. Urgh, over-bearing self-righteous assholes. Oh, I was at Kmart not too long ago to pick up some baby oil for waxing, and I was reading the tabloids. And it says the world shall end September 11th of this year. Can you believe it? Another one! Well, it didn't say that the world would end, but it said that Jesus would come and there would be a lasting peace for one thousand years. But National Enquirer says that crap all the time. And yet, the world has not yet ended. Don't you find that slightly a bit humorous?
If the world is going to end, like the Mayans say in 2021, then I'll be almost thirty and I'll probably will have lead a good enough life to die XD. But if it does, then I'm heading to confession.
So now, Japan may I say is breeding psychos. Seriously. There was an article about it a few days ago after that guy lost his mind and randomly stabbed seven people to death in the middle of the Akibushura District? Well, I can't remember the street name but yeah.
I looked it up again, and here are a few excerpts from atricles I found:
[note: I'm not obsessed with Japan, it was just on Yahoo! news]
"On the day of the killings, he posted some 30 times, saying that he was on his way to the Akihabara area, that he intended to kill and, finally, just 20 minutes before the rampage began, that “it's time.”
Kato, a 25-year-old factory worker, is accused of ramming a rented 2-ton truck into a crowd of pedestrians at the popular shopping area and then racing around wildly with a military-style dagger and stabbing as many people as he could before police overpowered him." - San Diego Union-Tribune
"Kato had become disillusioned with life after failing to keep up with the academic level at an elite high school, many media reports have said." - Yahoo! Reuters
A different occurence:
"Eight elementary schoolchildren were slashed to death at a school near Osaka on June 8, 2001, by Mamoru Takuma, 37, who was on medication for a mental problem. Takuma, who told police he took 10 times the normal dose of his drug, had been arrested two years earlier for drugging four teachers at a different school where he worked." - Bloomberg
Lol, I feel like a journalist. But yeah, they say that the Japanese are so into extrodinary grades, and high standards of living, that the people feel invincible, and when they fail in any such ways they become depressed and generally go into a degenerative sprial down ward to teh point of being considered homicidal maniacs.
I don't know why I'm writing about this, I just found it interesting. And yoiu notice one thing, in our state, since China is going to overthrow us pretty soon, then we'll be run by Asians, and thus homicidal maniacs. I'm not calling all asians 'homocidal maniacs', because I am asian, and it's a big stereotype, but how do you know I'm not a maniac? XD
And the other thing that's making Japan so crazy is that it is now illegal to be overweight. What the fuck is wrong with them. I mean, don't like obesity as much as the next person, but you can't do that. If your a male your waist cannot exceed 33.5 inches. And for females its 35.4 inches. If you exceed that, then you're off to re-education for six months, and your waist is monitored. Hell, what is this world coming to?