Fact: Today was the last day of school

I have to say I am quite excited, and yet sad at the same time. I'm glad to be released from the stresses and homework assignments, but I'm sad because I'll miss seeing all my friends every single day. I won't miss waking up early though!

Blech. Now that it's the last day of school, I feel somewhat stressed. In a few more days it will set in. I always feel this way as school ends. You know, the 'omg, I only have so much more time left before I am offically deemed a failure at life because I can't get into a good college'. Last year I went through the same stresses and promised myself that I would work so hard that I would have a shot at Oxford, even though I wouldn't go. You know, just to have amazing grades like that.

I honestly want to go to Yale. If not then definately UPenn. But honestly, I highly doubt I ever will get into schools such as those. I wish I could be one of those amazing people that are amazing at everything. I've had people call me 'perfect', but I honestly am nowhere near. I wish I was, and I wish it was possible to strive to become 'perfect'. But that would make me superficial.

I've always been obsessed with the idea of college. And the fact that I'm not good enough stresses me out greatly. I even stressed out about the SATs when I wasn't even taking them. My big sister and brother are so amazing, it causes me to stress out too. Blech. All this stress literally gives me ulcers.

I've been inspired in recent days. My friend in Korea inspired me to get back into my art. I've had a dry spell for a very long time. Everything I drew, I honestly wanted to throw everything out. I literally stopped drawing for a very long period of time because I just couldn't do anything. Everything just looked horrible. But I just started drawing again the other day, and my work had changed greatly. Now it's much more 'unique'. I also have a new role model! She goes by the name of Audrey Kawasaki. Her art is literally breath-taking. She does realistic portaits on slabs of wood. I think I'll try to get my parents to get me one for my birthday for my room.

I am more content these days. But today, I was a little peeved when I saw a bunch of freshman girls copying my style. They took a little element of it, and honestly made it look quite horrible. Once in a while, I'll wear a coordinated tie with a more feminine outfit. And now the freshman are doing it. It kind of bothers me. Freshman, please search for your own identities.

Hopefully, I'll get over this soon.

But on another note, I'm gald you're so much happier these days. It's nice to see you happy, in a good place, and enjoying life. I hope you stay this way.