Fact: Today was the last day of school

I have to say I am quite excited, and yet sad at the same time. I'm glad to be released from the stresses and homework assignments, but I'm sad because I'll miss seeing all my friends every single day. I won't miss waking up early though!

Blech. Now that it's the last day of school, I feel somewhat stressed. In a few more days it will set in. I always feel this way as school ends. You know, the 'omg, I only have so much more time left before I am offically deemed a failure at life because I can't get into a good college'. Last year I went through the same stresses and promised myself that I would work so hard that I would have a shot at Oxford, even though I wouldn't go. You know, just to have amazing grades like that.

I honestly want to go to Yale. If not then definately UPenn. But honestly, I highly doubt I ever will get into schools such as those. I wish I could be one of those amazing people that are amazing at everything. I've had people call me 'perfect', but I honestly am nowhere near. I wish I was, and I wish it was possible to strive to become 'perfect'. But that would make me superficial.

I've always been obsessed with the idea of college. And the fact that I'm not good enough stresses me out greatly. I even stressed out about the SATs when I wasn't even taking them. My big sister and brother are so amazing, it causes me to stress out too. Blech. All this stress literally gives me ulcers.

I've been inspired in recent days. My friend in Korea inspired me to get back into my art. I've had a dry spell for a very long time. Everything I drew, I honestly wanted to throw everything out. I literally stopped drawing for a very long period of time because I just couldn't do anything. Everything just looked horrible. But I just started drawing again the other day, and my work had changed greatly. Now it's much more 'unique'. I also have a new role model! She goes by the name of Audrey Kawasaki. Her art is literally breath-taking. She does realistic portaits on slabs of wood. I think I'll try to get my parents to get me one for my birthday for my room.

I am more content these days. But today, I was a little peeved when I saw a bunch of freshman girls copying my style. They took a little element of it, and honestly made it look quite horrible. Once in a while, I'll wear a coordinated tie with a more feminine outfit. And now the freshman are doing it. It kind of bothers me. Freshman, please search for your own identities.

Hopefully, I'll get over this soon.

But on another note, I'm gald you're so much happier these days. It's nice to see you happy, in a good place, and enjoying life. I hope you stay this way.

I'm extremely excited that tomorrow is my last day of school for the year! I have to say, I am kind of melancholy, but I'm extremely excited just to get this all over and done with. I'm exempt from half my exams, so that means I only have to take 3. So yay. I would only have to take my exams for Spanish 3 Honors, Geometry, and Religion.

I got my information for AP History next year, and I feel too lazy to do it already. I have so much stuff to do this summer! Now that I think about it, I'll basically be in school all the time! My acting classes start next week, my modelling picks up again, driving school, Chinese lessons, SAT prep courses. And on top of that, I have to work, and volunteer. Blech, too much. I want to be extremely lazy and just sleep all the time.

As soon as I get home tonight, I have to type up the invitations to my Sweet Sixteen! I kind of forgot to make them! I'll just rush and do them all tonight, since tomorrow is the last day I will see everyone in the same place. I figured what I'm going to do finally too! But I'll tell you when the time comes.

I don't know what I want for my birthday yet. I was going to ask for a Zune, because they are much nicer than ipods, but the thing is I would have to download Zune Marketplace, which is the Microsoft equivalent to iTunes. I don't really care about downloading it, but the thing is that you're very constricted and limited to the music you are allowed to download. The main thing I hate about iTunes and Zune Marketplace is the fact that their are literally no foreign artists. The only reason I care is that I would like to listen to my asian FOB music since I am asian lol.

Today I am obsessed with Suju's Kim Kibum! Usually I'm in love with Sungmin, Leeteuk, and Eunhyuk. But I never really had an interest in Kibum until recently when I saw a video of them re-enacting a scene from Titanic in English. His english was heart-melting. And plus, he has an extremely adorable smile! Okay, and now I'm in love with Jae-joong/Hiro because his quirks are absolutely adorable. Lol, I need to pick someone. I'm just glad I'm definately the farthest thing from an obsessed fangirl.

Blech, I'm excited for my pageant, and I really hope I win. :] I can't wait to pick out a pretty dress to wear!

I don't remember what else I was going to say...

Fact: 'Baby, I'm gone..'

I finally got around to writing here!

There are only a few days of school left, and to be honest, I'm very very excited to just sit, do nothing, and relax. Honestly, it feels like vacation has already started today. Today is also prom! But I'm not going because I wasn't asked lol. I'll go next year.

I left class early to go to the dentist today, and it was just the basic cleaning. One of my fillings had to be smoothed slightly, and they went on with that, but I couldn't stop laughing becuase whenever they drilled, the drill gave off a slight squealing sound.

I feel very FOB lately. (Fresh off the boat) Which basically means I've been feeling much more asian. Which is odd right? It's probably a side effect from my recent trip. I feel like growing my hair super long. I also feel the urge to avoid the sun also. (Since when was this new? XD ) I feel the urge to watch the asian channel on tv, and beg my parents to take me to the oriental film store when they go. I feel so different compared to my sisters. Over the years they've become extremely American-ized and can't even speak our first language anymore.

My birthday is coming up, and I seriously have no idea what I'm planning. I have the date, and that's basically about it, other than the bounce house. Generic waterballoons? Dance off? (lol) I went and got invites today! They're super classy and yet scream party at the same time, not really. I've never really had a 'big' party. My largest was one with about 4 people. I know, I'm a pretty sad person.

My father says he'll get me either a Kindle or Rosetta Stone if I make 1st honors this marking period. I think I'll take Stone since it's more conventional. Honestly, I would love a Kindle, but I would probably get bored and stop using it quickly XD. My parents haven't bribed me for good grades in years. I'm pretty sure the last time was in the sixth grade, and I got a POKEMON GAME lol. I miss the good ol' days of gameboys.

I had so much to write! But now I feel like a loser for rambling on about crap. =^-^=