Fact: Carpe Diem

To be honest, I was never really a follower of the phrase, but over the past few days, I think I've become more accustomed to it? I can't really explain in english, but you kind get the point right?

If you personally know me, I was upset this morning. First there was that feeling like someone had shoved a whisk into my stomach and hit 'puree', because I felt so mortified. Then, that went away and I was just left feeling sad. I forgot about it during first period. But then it came back. Then it went away again, and then came back. I was pretty upset about it, but not enough to cry. Maybe to tear up for a second, but then it had gone away as quickly as it came. I wanted to be angry and spiteful, I was, and then I got over it.

I went after school to the old folks home to volunteer as I always do every Tuesday, and spent my time with the elderly. I tried to put it past me, and used it as a conversation starter. They all laughed, and they teased me. And then when I went home, I went on the computer and just listened to the same song I listen to everyday now. And then I stopped caring.

I guess it didn't mean so much to me as I had thought you know?

I actually look forward to going to school tomorrow, and pretending like nothing happened. It's so weird right?

Then my parents gave me the news that I'm going to be 'studying abroad' next summer, to make it up for the fact that they screwed my chances at Yale this summer. If I don't get another offer, then I'll be on a plane headed to my 'homeland' of Vietnam, Taiwan, and Hong Kong for two months. I have to say I'm excited, but I'm going to try to not get my hopes up since my parents will probably ruin that too XD. I'll be there visiting family, doing immense amounts of shopping, and going to school. To be honest, I'd rather go to school here in America where it's easy, and I don't have to wear unattractive uniforms with my name stitched in.

So I'm excited and nervous since I can't navigate an airport by myself.

I should do homework now :]